today is the worst day

today is the worst day for me..
i'm very upset with my result..
my result so bad that i ever had before
i put all my efforts but still didn't work
why??
was it because of me??
was it because of her??
was it my efforts didn't enough???

my friends told me just get rid of it..try to isolate myself ..
they give bad influence to me..
they give me pressure that i couldn't endure it
they didn't give me some space to breathe..
it makes me miserable and worst
couldn't perform well in my work..

she gave me options to let me decide which one better suits me well
either leave it or just keep it going with new spirit.
i choose to keep it going with new best solutions that she suggested to me
she promised that she will help me to solve it.

but i'm still felt upset and very sad
i cried very hardly
why should i face this??

her words remind me of my parents
they sacrifice too lot of money for me to pursue it